03 December 2015

Day 21

I think I've been feeling sad.

I used to want to get out of Guam so badly before, mainly because it was not home to me. Even when I was in college, I still felt the need to get off of this rock. Things have changed I guess after I started dating Dan and after I started working as a nurse.

I realized that I *quite possibly* make more money here and that I *quite possibly* make money easier here. I have learned to adapt to the life here after living for more than eight years here. I learned how to drive and I learned to love it. I love driving to the point where I hate public transportation. Although using public transportation is cheaper and is more environmentally friendly. However, I love the convenience and the safety driving provides me with. 

Quite frankly, I don't like using the subways in NYC. It's dirty. And I have seen videos of people actually vomiting and pooing in the subways. 

Tomorrow, I'm gonna be taking my car to the dealership to see how much they will price my car in case I sell it to them. I've been trying to sell my car since August. Now it's December and I still have my car. 

Life is so, so full of twists and turns. I'm trying not to question the universe for what's been happening with mine and my family's life. But sometimes I can't help but ask why. There are moments when I look back to the days when my mom would complain of severe headaches and her blood pressure would shoot up to 200's. I should've forced her to see a doctor rather than just attempting to convince her to see one. I wasn't pushy enough. We shouldn't have waited for her to go to Philippines to be seen by a doctor. I should've corrected her stupid mentality about death. I should've lectured her on the ill effects of not taking care of her health. I should've.. 

Prevention really is the best cure. 

02 December 2015

Day 22

December 1. 

I will be turning my resignation from Guam Memorial Hospital on December 7.

Resigning on December 21.

Leaving for Philippines on December 23.

Today I took mom to her appointment with Ms. Noreen at the US Renal Care for her blood work (her Hgb and Hct had to be rechecked since she hasn't been getting the Aranesp shot because her blood count was 12.)

After her clinic appointment, I took her to Jia Restaurant at the Guam Plaza Hotel. She didn't like the food so we had to go to Taste at Westin Hotel. And she usually loves the food there. While we were eating lunch, I received a call from the Guam Regional Medical City. I have been scheduled for an interview. I applied for a job as a nurse in the said hospital on October and it's only now that I got a call for an interview. I would really love to gain more experience in the field of nursing. I would really love to but... The cureent plan is to move to NYC on January. 

What to do, what to do? 

After our big lunch, I had to update the credit card details at John's school so that they could bill his monthly tuition. 

Then I watched Hunger Games: Mockingjay part 2 with Daniel at 1530. The movie was pretty alright. I thought it was too predictable. Even my boyfriend who didn't read the book predicted what was going to happen in the movie.

Then I bought detox tea from vitamin world. Checked out headphones from micropac (but didn't buy one.) Bought paper towels. 

Took a nap (bad move.)

Now reading my book on Core Curriculum for Pain Management Nursing. 

Days off seem so short while workdays are so long. 

30 November 2015

Day 23

It's November 30! Aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!

Day 24

Sunday. Still worked 12 hours today. While I would love to stay home today, I need to make that time and a half pay.

Today was pretty uneventful. Just had a patient (who has intermittent confusion) hit on me and even used a funny pick up line. 

I was educating him about the signs and symptoms of transfusion reactions (because he's getting a blood transfusion obviously) and one of the symptoms of the reaction is chest tightness. I told him to let me know when he's having one and he told me right after that he's "having one right now." I further inquired if he really was having one that moment and he said, "because of you." He further said, "you know what I think? I think you're beautiful." Ah. He must be on his period of confusion. 

Day 25

Worked 12 hours on a Saturday.

Sometimes I envy people who work regular schedules.

Note to self: if the doctor asks for a Foley catheter and nothing else, he wants you to prepare an entire foley kit (4 10cc syringes, saline, lubricant, foley bag, 2 irrigation kits, plus some other stuff he forgot to mention over the phone.)